How exciting is it to think about that! I’m nervously organizing things in my house to make the transition from Mom and Dad being gone for 2-3 months in Chicago a little easier for my mother and mother-in-law. My dad is currently traveling to Poland because my Babcia is slowly passing. I would do anything to be there if I could, but I know she would want me to move forward and get this MonSter taken from me forever!
So many emotions in my head tonight. I am trying to go to sleep earlier and wake up earlier, to get into a more natural sleeping pattern, but it is so difficult with the daytime fatigue and the nighttime insomnia. I took my Ambien about 30 minutes ago and it feels as though it is working. Hopefully of to sleep I go to try to conquer another day of cleaning and organizing tomorrow.
It’s just before 11pm and I’m actually in bed ready to go to sleep!
I fought through my fatigue today and did not nap during the day. Also, since we moved our clocks backwards I am more tired now since my body still feels as though it’s almost midnight. This might be a possible reset of my internal sleep clock! That would be awesome!
I never understood why this happens. It’s like I’m caught in a catch-22. If I am fatigued during the day, I end up taking a nap. These naps are not your typical “power naps” but rather 3-4 hour hits of deep sleep. Then later I am still fatigued and not rested. I tell myself that I want to go to sleep early (at least by midnight – yes, that is early in my turned-upside-down world) and hopefully start to change the cycle. I was always a nightowl but this is ridiculous. Three nights this week, I went to bed by 1am and still did not fall asleep until 3! Even when I take my Lunesta, it still doesn’t help.
Melatonin, however, seems to help a bit and when I took it last night I was able to fall asleep rather quickly – within an hour. So, I may have this be my go-to and see if it helps start to break the cycle.
